Untitled Grief Part- 23 By Katherine Lightwood

Untitled Grief Part- 23

By Katherine Lightwood

I was told to be ashamed of the shame that I held,
Was told to lower the screams of my pain that I yelled.
Was laughed at the fact that that I was frail,
Don't know where my ship is heading, don't know how to sail.
Was told to be ashamed of the burden of my fear,
Thrown down like a baseball, my head was not so clear.

Woke up in a dark alley, with my hear full of pain,
Lost in the horizons of my dark thoughts, there's nothing to gain.
Then again, I saw the speck of light following me through the shadow,
Again expected to run into the darkness, expected a tough blow.
And slowly the light grew with an into a huge ball of darkness,
I waited till the end, I thought it was harmless. 

But it vilified me and reflected my frightening inner demons,
Thought my life was messed up and it's just giving me lemons.
But how wrong was I keeping my soul on a leash,
Was getting tortured from inside, felt like without water I was a fish.
And that was not the end, was just a start of the new fight,
There wouldn't be any mercy, there wouldn't be any light.

Katherine Lightwood